benci .

i came bck early bcoz my mum said
tht im gonna be in big trouble .
at first i thought she was just joking
so tht i would go bck home early.
but then . it was true .
i came bck .
and we talk .
i cant believe i hate my father this much .
i thought , he believe me .
but it was all i lie .
i dont trust my mum .
but i use to trust my dad .
not . i cant trust anyone .
no one can help me when i have a family problem .
no one can save me from getting beaten by ur parents .
the one who can only save is ur siblings.
i lost mine.
im alone .
im scared.
i wanna run far far away .
but i love my mum .
how ?  
i want my blood sister bck .
i want her );
she left me alone .
she left me crying out loud.
i hate daddy & mummy
for being "sepakat" to scold me .
to bet me .
I HATE U BOTH !
and i hate my COUSINS !
its suppose to be my problem
but u all have a big mouth  .
plus my Grandmother .
i really cant believe wht u did .
i dont love u all anymore.
u all are nothing to me .
just a piece of shit .
); i dont trust anyone to keep my secrets.
aku benci korang .
my grandmother . is no longer
the one i love most. 
i love my frens more then my family
or my blood cousins.
im damn dissapointed  .
how i wish i was dead .
tk sanggop aku hidop .
nk rembat aku . kau nk tendang aku .
buat uh . lagy bagos .
aku tunggu eh .
sape sape nk bunuh aku .
bunuh laah. tk kuase aku tk hidop .

im so glad we knew .

Today was a blast ! 
so many plans but lastly i still could cope with it .
woke up and went to lot1 with mummy . 
ate breakfast at kfc.
then took cab .
to Queesway , woodlands, lot1(again)
ate longjohnsilver and bought bubbletea.
bought some curry puff too for my dearest nenek(:
then went bck home by cab .
put all my things and stuffs.
took cab again and met up with my deareast sis .
we watched kk at jrng , Astina .
today was lyke a bonding for us . hahaaa.
btol tk tipu . sisters-bonding<3
just reached home actually .
im so glad today .
must be a lucky day for me .
Titi didnt meet me today .
hmmmmmm. .
anywae , Tc sis! 
and my peeeeeps !

where did everyone go ?

hello peeps. 
i stayed home the whole day !
gd gerl tahu .
actually , i can go out .
but i got a time limit .
but then , i dunno want to go out wif who .
and if i do , i really have to step in my house exactly
on the time .
so i decide not to go out unless its near and for awhile .
well , tomorrow is gonna be busy .
im going so called "shopping " with my mum .
hmm,,,... since my cousin is staying at my house for
the mean time , i have people to talk to  .
if not , by now i would have been talking to myself
since my mum went out .
ade je kwn dyeh . same je mcm kitekite .
lepak sane , lepak sini . pui !
btw , just now i was damn bored.
so i took out almost all clothes i have .
so i tried them on one by one. 
lastly , i tried out a dress . 
and, i cant believe i look nice in it .
hahaha! so damn random.
hmm...where did all my frens go ?
wheres my sis ? 
hai yoooooo .
outofwords. ciaao !

fate.

woke up late . 
11 going to 12 noon .
siap siap , go lot 1 .
met up with Titisiao   .
Ate longjhonsilver ?
then , headed to sis house  .
wait for her to siap .
then ciaao .
planned to go to jrng together .
but since sis wants to go town .
so me and Titi went there ourself .
reached there , touchups with our horses.
heehhorre. haha!
then headed bck home.
but i was late .
and my mum was in my room .
so i sealed my cigg first.
then she go read our all my msgs.
and asked damn lots of question .
espeacially kechyk's msgs.
i dont mind . hmmm...

-bby just went out of spore .
 he doesnt want me to be naughty .
 haha(:    gonna miss him .
 i miss him already );

(;

first gy lot1 .
lepas tu gy rmh kakak ku .
gitu gitu . gini gini ,
gy jurong .
jumpe Titi pat sane .
kite bikin barang barang .
dh gitu akak kene alek cpat .
so tinggal dgn Titi aje .
kite continue .
lepas tu dah mlm , balek .
i go home .
nari tk dpt jumpe Kechyk.
dyeh nk kene gy town .
nk beli baju . shopaholic lh katekn .
$$$$$  haha. siak je.
then actually dyeh nk jumpe selepas tu ,
dan dyeh nk Elly ikot dyeh gy town  .
tapy tgh busy mase tu .
hai yooo .
lepas dyeh alek dari town ,
dyeh beli beer. mao minom .
jady dyeh ajak .
but i cant . lagypon, dh smpi rmh mase tu .
beh dyeh kate nk tron tempat Elly.
but my sedare sume pat rmh  .
nnti bohcui kalao kluar .
so cannot .
lagypon,kene mintk izin dari kakak ku dulu .
btol tk ?  hah .
esok dyeh gy malaysia T_T   
entah berapa lama.
haisssh . harap tk lama laah . hai yoo .
tc bby . haha! random*  (;

Im a black sheep .

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apakah dayaku
tk mampu diriku menahanmu .
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menunggu diriku ini
berikanlh aku ruang
berteduh dihatimu
utk selamanya .

bugs

21/12/2009 ;
went to kk traning .
paint my horse. 
then , went to teck y.
met up with Lalaa .
of awhile ,
then went bck home .
currently otp with Kechyk  .
he called me ^^
sometime , i find myself weird with guys .
hahaaaaa...... i'll get use to it  .
so, tomorrow's plan ? hmmm...
not so sure.
im starving .
no food T_T
nehmind . no appitide anyway.
dunno wht bugs me . hmm ..
gtg.bye.